Tuesday, December 31, 2013

More 2013 Wrap-Up Stuff... The It's All About Me Edition!

So, the last post of the year is another wrap up list. The one where I list my failures and triumphs during the year. Mostly it’s about failures.

Given my love of lists, I’ve decided to turn my year of writing into a list. So, yay for me. Boo for how short it is, only two items. 2012 was actually a pretty productive year, I suppose. Not really productive, but it at least appeared that way when compared to 2013, a year in which I accomplished almost nothing. Let’s review.

First, I worked on Total Depravity. I wrote the first draft of this story back in 2011. Very early in 2011, actually , it might have been late in 2010. Needless to say, I’ve been working on it a long time. This story started as an experiment, as I wanted to do an epistolary story. Then, I decided that it didn’t work that way, so I rewrote it from scratch. Sent it to some beta readers, then made revisional changes and thought it was, more or less, ready.

But something was nagging me about, something I dismissed. But when I sent it out for some edits, Andrew Leon wrote back a short critique and mentioned that he had a hard time connecting with the lead character.

And I’ve been in a downward spiral of self-doubt and pity ever since.

I’m kidding, but I did immediately see what he meant, after thinking about it some, I decided I needed a better opening, so I tossed what I’d written and started over.

From scratch. I reworked the beginning, then realized that some of those changes really alters the continuity of the story as I’d plotted it, so I had to replot as a result. I’m approximately halfway through the story concerning this. I’ve tried to add more emotionally resonant matter, and smooth out a lot of the continuity errors I introduced during my rewrites.

My hope is that the later portions of the story can stand, more or less, unchanged, as the payoff shouldn’t be altered too much. But I have taken my sweet time as a result. Currently, it’s only about 35k words long, but it’s been my wip for, more or less, 3 years now. Imagine if it were a full novel!

So, I’m pushing the completion date of this story back to Spring of 2014. Honestly, I’m thinking of selling it for $8 a pop, just because it’s been such a damned chore. Sheesh.

Second, I did write a first draft of a novel with demon hunters and demons. I was convinced that it was the most brilliant thing a human has ever conceived when I began, and was pretty sure it was derivative, childish, naïve, poorly written and all around a waste of my, and everyone else’s, time by the time I’d finished out November.

An excerpt of that is readable on this is available, btw, which is really just a way for me to fish for compliments, as I need external validation on such a repeated basis that I tend to want to smack myself.

I’m not 100% sure I’m going to continue with it. I think I will. Because I realize that the years are zipping on by at a furious pace and I don’t have much of anything complete enough to shop around to would-be agents, publishers, or fans.

Aside from that, I did, for the most part, nothing. A very quiet year for me, and one so unfulfilling creatively, that I ended up being pouty and annoyed for much of the time.

Damn, this isn’t even an IWSG post. Who knows what sort of self-pitying rant I could go on next time.


Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Next Wednesday's post will be sad...
I'd buy your book for eight dollars. Go over ten and the deal's off though.
As usual, you're too hard on yourself.

Andrew Leon said...

Well, I'm looking forward to seeing the new Depravity, and you should totally figure out a way to get in another 5k words or so to get it over the 40k mark. Seriously.

And, if all goes well, I should have your other thing next week.

Jo said...

I am so glad I am not a writer. Couldn't stand the angst.

Good luck with the writing, stick with it.

Happy New Year.

boopia said...

Happy New Year, Rusty. Keep at it. I have never read anything you have written which wasn't entertaining.

Briane P said...

Ahem. Sequel to Dead God?


I'm going to read that excerpt.

I hope 2014 is mkre to your liking. Submit some stuff to lit! Maybe oh I don't know A SEQUEL TO DEAD GOD.

Tonja said...

Time is definitely zipping by.

Danette Baltzer said...

I like that you warn commenters that your sensitive and to be nice. :D I don't know what kind of person would say anything mean to you but... I suppose they're out there? I feel your pain on the lack of creativity front. I look back at it and I cannot even look over a bank of photographs and think, "well, at least I have THOSE". Nope it's been a pretty uncreative year. Bleh. And the year had the added benefit of emphasizing that time is FLYING by.

Donna Hole said...

I rather think Dead God does need a sequel. Should be intriguing. Glad to see the writing is steady going :)

Happy New Year Rusty.


Cindy said...

We have something in common. I also have a novel at only about 39K words. Just be stubborn and you will finish it. That's what I'm going to do.

Happy New Year!